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She’d been beaten. She was wounded emotionally and spiritually. She had no moral compass guiding her through this nightmare. She felt used. She was tired. She was no longer a woman.
Heather decided that it was time and she decided to do it when the kids weren’t around.
It was a rare moment when she could foist off all of her children, so she had to wait until the little ones were napping.
She thought to herself that sleeping pills would work best, but she didn’t have access to them. The thought of jumping to end her life would work, but there was nothing tall enough in Heresford to throw herself from.
As these thoughts raced through her mind, she sang a sweet lullaby that no one would ever hear again to her two smallest ones.
Heather spent her last moments tidying her room and organizing her bedroom. As she cleaned, she found her wedding dress. It was a lovely, simple dress made of cotton and some silk, with small opalescent beads sewn into the neckline and cuffs.
She thought for a few moments that she’d wear this dress in her last few moments, but she realized that even in this moment, it would be inappropriate. Instead, she took a few moments to cut it up into small pieces and layer it into the sheets, a small surprise for Matthew when he returned to his bed.
The only real option for her was to cut her wrists. She filled the bath with hot water, eased into it and did what she felt must be done to end her misery on this planet. Even hell seemed better than this.
As her life flowed from her, and the steam rose in a cloud, looking like a spirit rising from the tub, she decided to make sure that simple plan worked absolutely. She got out of the tub, grabbed a radio from the bedroom, not caring about the mess that she had made and then plugged it close to the tub. Long ago, she might have used that plug for her hair dryer as she prepared for a dance or social, something very popular in these parts, but today it served an important purpose in ending her life.
Heather Harken eased back into the tub and as her senses slow to an end, she kicked the radio and her troubles come to a close.
(Note: "Excited Delirium" is a work of fiction. Any person, place or thing depicted in this work of fiction is also a work of fiction. Any relation of these subjects or characters to real locations, people or things are an unintentional coincidence.)
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